Ovarian Cancer

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I have just found out that I have two tumors, one on each ovary. One is 10cm and the other 6cm. I am totally freaking out and I'm sure I will lose my mind. I have an appointment with a gynecologist/oncologist on Wed., Aug. 12. How do I deal? I have never been a strong person and the thought that I might have cancer makes me a basket case. I am going to have a full hysterectomy (don't know when yet) but I just know they're going to find cancer all over. <sob> I had my annual exam in April and nothing was found. Maybe they just missed it? This is how my mind works. Always think the worst. I am having one long panic attack since I found out on Wednesday. I'm 58, quit smoking 1.5 years ago after a long time of smoking. I fit the profile and one tumor is large. I have never been so scared in my life and I can't seem to stop the anxiety. I guess it's because this cancer is one of the most dangerous. I am just preparing my self for the worst.
Thanks for letting me vent.